I THINK... I BELIEVE... I KNOW...

03 NOVEMBER 2003

Words are something I like to stay focused too. Words, as well as thoughts and actions, set our future in motion... set our Karmaic Law in motion. I know this... so, if I care about myself I watch what words I use. I have the tool and I know the results. So, I know how to set a better future in motion for myself.

These are three things that get used in my daily conversations. I think... I believe... and, I know. What do they mean to me?

I think... is when I am not done with the mind-chatter yet. It means that I have dissected, tested and analyzed the subject matter; but, am not entirely convinced that there is something else that I have not given consideration to yet. I am somewhat convinced... but, not all the way yet. Still playing with mind-chatter.

I believe... is when I have dissected, tested and analyzed to the point that I am 95% sure that this is the way it is. There may be a little more that I am unaware of; but, I know that I can believe in this. The mind-chatter is done, but I am leaving a certain area open for the unknown.

I know... well, I would like to be able to say that I have done the dissecting... the testing... the analyzing... but, I cannot. And, I am only saying that because of trying to show proof to you... but, I cannot. I know... is not a process. I know is just something intuitive. It is where Spirit just gave me the thought... and I know without a doubt that this is the way it is.

And, it is interesting. In my earlier years I still would have this need to dissect even the knowings. I found that when I did this, the knowledge would be lost. It was like I would start analyzing it and my mind would be taken to something else. Like Spirit was saying, "I gave you a bit of knowledge and you cannot just accept it... let's take your mind somewhere else since you are not ready." Now, I know Spirit does not think that way; but, my mind evidently does.

How many times do we do that? Spirit gives us knowledge and we cannot just accept it. We cannot believe that there is this part of us that does know all the answers. It happens to all of us. We are walking down the street and come to a cross-road. Something within us says, "Turn right." But, we are use to turning left. So, we do not listen. We turn left and walk about a half a block and someone has left a bag of money on top of their car after leaving the bank and it came off the top of the car without the person knowing. There is money all over the street. And, if we had turned right, we would be part of the clean-up of that money. Or worse... we walk about a half a block and a car jumps the curb and hits us and we end up with a broken leg from the impact. Either way, we were not listening to within.

Sometimes we remember hearing the 'turn right'. Sometimes we are given the opportunity to set ourselves right... to set in motion that we will listen better in the future. A verbal statement that we give our mind. "In the future, I know and accept that Spirit knows better than I and I will be receptive to its knowing. And, IT IS SO!" Usually, if I am wake, I say it three times to lock it in.

But anyways... as usual, my mind got caught in the thoughts and I got away from the subject matter.

I know... that there is One God, One Spirit, One It that is the essence permeating all. And, I do mean all... us humans, the animals, the plant life, the planets and that which makes up the Universe... even a rock. It does not matter what religious or spiritual belief we have, it is still One Spirit... no matter what name we give It. I have known this since a child. Although, at times I have looked to It out in the clouds somewhere, when I know that it is inside me. I even have spent time thinking that the voices in my head where angels or spirits that had moved on and in between lives they helped us. Well, they were for a while. It seems they were very active with me when I started getting religion... and, put God out in the clouds. Interesting... when I started moving God outside of myself, I became aware of them... communicated with them... listened to them. As soon as I gave up religion and started bringing Spirit within me again, they disappeared.

I know... that I am responsible for and to my thoughts, words and actions. I have known since childhood. What I did not know, was just how. As I child I did not realize that I was setting forth karma. I never really believed in hell or Satan. From the beginning, I believed that this God, Spirit, It was totally unconditionally caring about me... us. It did not make since that if God was everything and God had total power, that anything like Satan could exist. So, I wasn't quite sure where the responsibility of myself led too. But, now I do.

I do believe that these angels or people that have passed on can have an enfluence on us if we let them. I do believe that they may be a little closer to the full understanding of what it is all about, but I also believe that they can be a good or bad influence. In fact, I know they can from experience. Many times I was directed wrongly when listening to them. Could they be just like us?... some good and some bad? Could this be what has caused the belief in Satan?

I know that when I receive a message... a knowing... from Spirit, it is not a voice. It is an urging. It is something beyond reasoning that just seems to be there... just in my mind. It is not a thought process. It is not a voice that I have had communication with. It is not what I refer to as mind-chatter. It just is a knowing that the information just is.

I know that I have a choice in these matters... to pay attention... or, not. For, Spirit gave us freedom. The freedom to learn... to evolve. Sometimes I think that Spirit is actually developing knowledge by living life through us. Not to necessarily have the knowledge, but to experience the knowledge. But, that is just mind-chatter at play. I just got a no from the yes/no. So, I was just playing in my head.

Freedom carries a lot of responsibility... to ourselves... and to others that we have influence upon. My parents, teachers, ministers and peers had the freedom and the responsibility to teach me proper. But, by the time they were in the position to teach me, they had developed fears... greed... and a desire to fit in... a desire to please people... think like the rest... don't make waves. They became more involved with other people's attitudes rather than listening within. A shame...

I somewhat did the same with my own children. Not quite... but in some areas.

But then, how much freedom did we have as a child? And, what are we doing with our freedom now. Are we still allowing what was taught to us as a child still linger and have an impression on who we are? Are we now realizing, thinking, believing or knowing that there is something better? Are we using the tools we have searched for and found that we know work which will bring us more happiness... joy... FUNTABULISTIC. Or, do we still feel bound to pleasing other people when it dis-pleases us or costs us? When will we learn to say "no" to other people so we can say "yes" to ourselves?... or "yes" to Spirit? Cause when we say "yes" to others and inside we are saying "no", I believe that we are saying to Spirit that we do not care enough about ourself. And, in a sense, are closing Spirit out.

Well, I know... some of what I have shared. I believe... everything I shared has merit. I think... that I have not stayed intune with the subject matter. But, I think... I have shared some good information. And, I think... that I am done. So, the 'thinking' has won today.

Namaste' My Friends,

Rev DEACON