The "I AM" Project
of
Rev Deacon
Ravings of a Mad Man
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AM GOING TO HELL Date: Tuesday, 28 September 1999, 14:23 PST, A Perfect Moment... |
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I just got word that a friend of mine committed suicide
this past Sunday evening. I feel shocked. Just the night before, he, three of
his brothers and myself were sitting on the patio in his backyard sharing jokes, drinking
some beers, and discussing our businesses. That same night, I put our new safety
mirror on his Harley to test for me. Admittedly, my friend was what many would call a wild one. However, he had a soft heart which showed in his wife, children, family, friends and neighbors. I never knew him to live in fear and he never compromised his integrety. I always found him to be firm but fair. He also liked to make people smile. My memory has no recall of him ever showing any depression through all the time I have known him. Because of what I know about him, I have found it very difficult to understand his choice here. Then, I hear that he lived for a short period and one of his brother's was with him. Besides the messages he left for his family and friends with his brother, he also told his brother that he knew he was going to hell and might just as well get there now. It appears that my friend had started to take his church more seriously over the past few years and had been attending with his family. And, with my friend's lifestyle, I could understand how so-called religious authorities might not approve. They may not have approved of his Harley being parked in front of the church... they may not have approved of the way he dressed... they may not have approved of his openness and lack of fear. They may not have approved of many things about my friend... But why???... Why would anyone teach another spirit/human to live in fear of a place of eternal punishment. This is religious control at its worst. And, yet those same so-called religious authorities probably teach about The Prodigal Son in their lessons somewhere. Does this story not teach the unconditional love of God? Does not the Father seeing his son return from his wandering ways go to meet him on the road? He did not wait for the lowly broken son to come to him. He went out to meet him with open arms. He took off his expensive coat and placed it on his son's shoulders. He did not chastise or punish his son. The rest of the story only shows more unconditional love on the part of the father. I did not just read this story in the Bible. I have heard this story many times in church services. From the same religious teachers that also instill the fear of God in other sermons when informing us that our life here will be judged and punished accordingly when we leave here. So what did these so-called religious authorities that teach about the punishments of hell miss in the Prodigal Son story? Let me ask this... If every time you made a mistake your father or mother sent you to a room that was filled with your worst fears, would you have kind feelings for them? Or, would you just fear them? Personally, I would not love or respect any parents that would mete out a punishment such as eternity in hell...much less give them a lifetime of devotion. The person that told me what my friend had done knows of my spiritual convictions and asked how I thought God looked at suicide. Myself, I have always kind of thought that that way out was cheating. At least, that is how I have kept myself from doing it. But, I have never believed that it really much mattered how we left here. We are still "on going". Could we have to repeat this experience if we chose that way out?... Good question and I really have no opinions here. However, no matter what my friend did in his life, I believe that when he made his transition our Spiritual Parents were there to greet him...with open arms filled with Love...no questions...no punishment...just unconditional acceptance. I was also asked about the idea of heaven and hell?... My belief is in "karmaic law"...what we put out we get back...an eye for an eye...etc. In other words, I believe we live heaven or hell each moment of our existence. Not just here on earth, but wherever we are at any given moment. Our Spiritual Parents knew we had lessons to learn as we unfolded. The most loving action they could do was to design it so that we learned our lessons now...not in the future. Personally, I have looked at my existence here as "hell" from time to time. I am sure there are many out there that would agree to the same about their own life. But, in the same token, I am sure that many out there would also agree that they have had moments that were filled with what most would refer to as the aspects of living in heaven. What a perfect plan...let each of us experience at the moment what we have set in motion so that if we are not comfortable, we can change our direction...or if we are comfortable, continue in that direction. Heaven or hell are our experiences right now depending on the choices we make in our lives. "Thank You Mother-Father Spirit. I enter into this communion with forgiveness for myself and others for when we have not been loving...with gratitude for the gifts you have made available to us...with desire that all those that teach your ways, teach the truth about your unconditional love. To my friend, go to the light. Do not wait around. Do not let the sorrows of those left behind hinder your journey. We will all be fine. My blessings and my love are with you as you continue your life in a new direction. Thank you for your friendship while you were here. You certainly had mine. My eyes may miss your form, but my mind will continue to know you and remember what we have shared. Thank you for those times. Happy Birthday into your new life. Enjoy it my friend. I love you. So is it!" |
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